Thoughts

"So how is everything going? What do you have again?" - roommate

                                                  "It's good.  I have a blood cancer" - me

"Man does that sound bad when you say it out loud!" - roommate 

This was a brief part of a conversation with one of my roommates yesterday and got me thinking about a lot. Well I wouldn't say that conversation sparked any ideas in my head but really started to reiterate what I had been thinking. This whole cancer is a lot to dump onto somebody.

Yes it isn't pleasant or the best thing to be happening right now, but you know what, it is. There is little I could have done to prevent it and I wouldn't have known what not to do, or where not to go, or what not to eat in order to prevent it. But in all reality at this moment in time I feel like I don't have it all that bad in life. I have been fortunate enough to be able to return to Philadelphia and keep on moving forward with my goals in life. I have started school again this week and next week I start working my 2 part time jobs again.  I feel lucky that I can return to what seems like a 'normal' life.  Yes I did have to bail from a job last weekend due to a little reaction to my medicine. Yes I do have a cold right now, whether it has anything to do with the cancer or the medicine, who knows. But all in all I have to say it isn't that bad.

When I meet new people they don't know from looking at me that I am fighting this crazy cancer. I don't get treated differently because it is not an obvious fight that I am fighting. So for now I feel grateful for being able to live this 'normal' life.  I am amazed by medicine and that a simple pill once a day can help me fight these mutated chromosomes and let me continue on toward my goals in life. 

I am glad that I have one extra day this weekend to relax before the craziness of this semester actually begins.  Hope everyone is enjoying their Labor day weekend :)